Fernando Zhang

Friday, March 30, 2007

10:40 AM

The sky has fallen and my head was below it. Im sinking. heart wise. I wish things wouldnt have turned out that way.

I'm breathing hard. Exhaling all the woes. Hope things will look bright soon. I know i need a medium to tranfer all these unnecessary flow of energy out of here.

I dont mind living in a monaestry for a week or so... just need my solace.

In a nutshell, it's a matter of journey that matters, not the end.. well, i should just stop here and start finding that solace.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007

1:44 PM

Old age?

Am not an afficianado of the old people though i've been speaking stuffs in regards to old age etc. But this bunch of people seems to appear before me whenever i travel.

As i was savouring my lunch yesterday, i saw an old lady spoonfeeding an ADULT man. Another old lady in the train today was happily reading the Barbie comic in her attempt to revive her lost happy childhood. She looks as if she cant be bothered! Not to mention, a few grannies who dress up like the jap teens months ago when i was around at toa payoh. With all the gimmicks n excess xcessories they are simply eyesores! Probably, more than that. It's an insult to our adolescence. :)

The key answer to this phenomenon i'd call it is aging population. wakkakaa.. It's really true.
Having to say that, i dont wish to live beyond 50. Hee. I mean it. Oh well, i cant decide for myself though for the decision is up to the divine. What am trying to say is, i just dont wish to live life where i've to depend on others when i need to pee or walk. stuffs like these really frighten me! But who knows old age is a better moment of life? Some earth's inhabitants say, " life begins at 40". When i heard it i pondered to myself," 40? Are u mad? What have you been doing for the past 40 years then? ' (."). Again the contradictory me.

I develop fine lines around my eyes at this age. Sigh, does it mean botox is on its way? Shoo the god-damn botox. :) lol. i dont need you Mr. Bot! But i need Ms. Facelift. hahaa.. jkjk...

Happy life , happy life, that's what i desire for. Knowing that friends, mom, dad, sista and everyone else whom i know love me, i'd be more than happy.

And i'm hearing it from your heart right now. You love me, arent you?

wink

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Monday, March 26, 2007

10:05 AM

Need a nip tuck? or a tummy tuck? Perhaps, one day i wouldnt mind having one. or a nose job.. though born flat nose, i've acquired greater height in my nose bone structure that it protudes to look like a sharp one. I've grown out of the chubby dimension (@3.5kg net weight when i was a baby) till the slim me. But as we get older or ancient in the next decades, our mind will transport itself to the realm of childhood... that's what i learn from my grandparents. same thing goes to the body... i wld probably grow back my flabs of adipose tissues, my fine lines which have successfully hid themselves during the youthful war, finally emerged as champions as it comes to old age.

Nip tuck? or carbo peel? ha ha. Well, when time comes. i'll decide. Who knows i dont need them at all. Age gracefully.

It's the start of the 7 week of attachment. Week 9 to 'back-to-skool'. Will make the best out of my dripping time and impress my boss! huehuehue..

love you guys....! whoever reading it.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Friday, March 23, 2007

10:07 PM

IT'S THE END OF THE SIXTH WEEK. SIXTH GUYS! MEANING, 3 MORE WEEKS. PHEW..

SO FAR SO FINE. :p

iM HAPPY TODAY. mR BEAN'S HOLIDAY, AM COMING!

BEEN MOVIEING ALL THIS WHILE. SPARE THE CASH? HAHA..

I LOST MY ZARA PULLOVER.... ARGH... HEART STABBED... BLOODS DRIPPED. HEART SKIPPING THE ROPE. LOL...
BUT AM OVER IT. AT LEAST MOVING ON, IT'S NON-LIVING THING, SOMETHING YOU SHDNT TREASURE MUCH.. WAKKAA.. TALK TOO MCUH ME?

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Sunday, March 18, 2007

4:20 PM

1.YOUR REAL NAME» Fernando Marzuki

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first threeletters of your name, plus izzle)» Ferizzle

3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (firstinitial of first name, first three ofyour last)» Fndo

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color andfav animal)» Purple Dog

5.YOUR DRUNK NAME.(FIRST 3 LETTERS OFYOUR FIRST NAME,then slam your hand onthe keyboard.)» Fernbigrfewd

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3letters of your last name, first 2letters of your first name, first 3letters of mom's maiden name)» Ukifesoe

7. SUPERHERO NAME: (favorite color,favorite drink)» Purple Grass Jelly

8. IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of yourfirst name, 3rd letter of your lastname, any letter of your middle name,3rd letter of your moms maidenname,letter of a siblings first name,last letter of your moms middle name)» euevy

9. ACT CUTE NAME : ( write your favanimal and erase the last letter of itand plus a yoki be
hind )» Doyoki

10. SMELLY NAME : ( write ur fav colourand plus a TOIL infront of it. )» Purpletoil

Thanks Jazelleer. hahahaa.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Saturday, March 17, 2007

10:39 PM

STOMP THE YARDS!

good movie

MUSIC AND LYRICS!

nice tunes

300!

good spirit

and good day to all!

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Friday, March 16, 2007

11:10 PM

Finally... The end of FIFTH week. a MONTH to go.

Am tired... real tired... Tired of life's monotony. Hmmm... how should i put it? imagine u think that ur life is filled with emptiness, u will then begin to fill it in with lotsa stuff...

But as u acquire more and more fun-ness for yourself, you will soon get sick of what you've been doing. as such, life becomes empty again...
Just like what you learn in econ, util? remember? haha..
is this what life meant to be? Fluctuatation of happiness... ? Woes versus Satisfactions...

I'm cool with life at times. Most of the times in fact. Life sux is a no-no statement... life's about how you handle struggles and standing up amongst weeds of troubles.. it sounds overlapping... but yeah, that's me and my philoshopy.. hee..

FOr all i know, my life and everyone else's life is never far from problems. . . I'm just going to live it up with my smiles..sincere ones of course... life's complicated if you take it that way... as such, take it simply... one thing at a time... breathe in, breathe out.. feel the hearbeats of the birds chirping through the crisp morning sky.. Listen to your heart, your mind... and sleep...

YEAH I WANT TO SLEEP NOW... so tired... sleepy... That's the gist of today's entry... SLEEP.
dormir in french.. tidur in malay... sui jiao, sounds like dumpling but cares, my chinese sucks..
BIG YAWN TO ALL...

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Thursday, March 15, 2007

2:21 PM

The Inaugural Annual Singapore Education Awards

the seven categories are as follows:
1) Best Education Event organised by a Tourism Club School
2) Best Host for International Students Studying in Singapore (Organisation)
3) Best Enrichment Programme
4) ¡®Friend of International Students¡¯ Award
5) Best Media Coverage for Singapore Education
6) Best International Marketing Effort by an Education Institution
7) Best Singapore Education (SE) Specialist

Why am i so interested?

Fast Fact
This is the first time Singapore Tourism Board (STB) is holding such an award. It is to value the contributions made to Singapore by organisations, members of public and industry players, in regards to its education and more importantly, the international students.

I'm so interested in it because my hostel of 6 years is one of the 3 final selected nominees for the category no.2 .

What's more? Our guardian is up against the high profile individuals in the open category no.4 .

Result will be in march 23rd. Stay tune and watch out for the winner.

IF we do win, we're gonna be so so famous. hahaha.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

3:31 PM

SMILE ALWAYS and I will Be finE. It works. IT's a Shitty day which means a dayful of shit. Am ok. fine with the shits. Cleaning them up with my Smile. Am talking about work. Drawings. updated? change everything? hell yea. Am loving it!! Yes, i Do.. Believe me. . Shit.

-Message of the day-

Don't ever shit! Or mess with shits. IT's too shittie. Shittie?Hindi word uh?

Happy shitty day

F e r n a n d o M

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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3:25 PM

What have i eaten today ?

wake up- 820am.

Consumption is as follow

3 bread talk breads
3 and a half Mrs. Field cookies
1 Mrs. Field brownie
A bowl of plain rice
A bowl of mixed beef soup
A cup of Redoxon
A glass of Bandung
A glass of protein
1 piece of Banana
H20

It's 330pm now. What else can i eat ? Dinner? What about yourself? :)
To be continued...

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Sunday, March 11, 2007

2:58 PM

Dedicated to you guys!

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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1:58 PM

SICK days are up for me. I've been sick for 3 days. Argh... Body gets heated up, i feel cold sometimes, want to throw up at times, lethargic.
I hope i recover by today for there's work tmr. Cant imagine what my boss would think of me if i skip work for DAYS.

Love it when i'm home these days resting. Less money spent, more time to read my novels, well it may sound simple, but i miss this moment. . Sometimes, small things in life thrill me much.

I'm trying to press down on my hp bill. I hope it works. If it doesnt , i'd better get myself hang!

I went to vivo yesterday, for a new round of massage after a month plus . The massaeur was saying, " aiyo, look at your shoulders, so stiff, you see lah, long time never come liao! "
I was thinking , ' auntie, come no need money ar.' haha.
I was refreshed after the massage though. It seems a few kgs load have been lifted off my body. Shiok!~ In addition to that, i purchased a new belt for my existing one could barely hold my pants for long. hee. sometimes i got to pull it up discreetly. paiseh leh. hee.
A new pink and beige shaded lycra pullover, it's really cool. guess what, it's so cheap tat i cant resist it. 20over dollars. good quality. wakakakkaka...

At least my spending is much better now for those who knew how i spent last year. lol. god bless me always. :)

Have a good sunday everyone, am looking forward to this coming week. mY parents are gonna be here. hee.

Cheers

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Saturday, March 10, 2007

1:46 PM

INDUSTRIAL TRAINING PROGRAMME

It's 5more weeks to the end of my attachment. Cool. Time flies. Look forward to coming back to school. Miss the foodcourts, miss my friends, my lecture rooms and the toilettes. lol.
Gonna miss my colleagues too. They are so nice and fun.

Though it's going well for me here, it's definitely going real bad for INdo now. SIgh.

1. Garuda chose to blast its passangers rather than giving them a proper landing.
2. As a result, our nasi Padang owner is enraged, for no reason his enormous fist hit the ground so hard that it shook the entire nation.
3. Our VP vows to suffocate the transport officials due to the plane case. a bit too late right?
4. In addition to our constant customers such as: flood and dengue, we , too, have surprised visitors of the Earthquake family, the Volcano Erupters, the fowl's Kingdom and many others whom have yet to visit us.

It's sad to note that these disasters are happening to the world's top 5 most populous country. Many lives suffered. The poor doesnt survive. The rich flees the country. What's left of indo then?

Is indo cursed?

I just wish for the best. One day, should i not be residing there anymore, i'd still look back and treasure memories i have back there.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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1:42 PM

I felt sick yesterday. Or in fact, two days ago. All thanks to durian prata i had the midnite. :)

Im better. Feel restless.. less appetite. Hmmm... Think i need a new round of good massage.

I had a haircut again. IT's pretty short. Since my last haircut was only two weeks ago now that i recalled. lol.

I need to get out .. argh... wanna leave this country... vacation... whereabout? hee..

i Checked the round trip ticket to melbourne. 950dollar. round trip to paris, swooping 1650dollar. hmm, adam air to jakarta? hahaha... who dares to take siar.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Thursday, March 08, 2007

3:17 PM

I had good sleep the night before! Amigo, fabulous.

Despite, i'm not in a bright mood today. Daddy gets well soon. Today's work is so far so fine.
Am trying to save up. Home early before 11pm. Sleep early. Spend less.
I can do it. I can do It.

I began picking up my reading routine. Though it's moving kind of slow but it's better than not doing anything right.

I feel lost at times. But i know someone will help me find my bearings.

Is love still around? I dont know. I wish to be the owner of one's heart.

Cheers to all frens on the darker path of life. Well, we are together.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

3:42 PM

It's another day. Another me. Another change, another discovery.

Hanson texted me, " Hey results out liao. What did you get? "

I didnt realise till his msg came. Forgotten. Must be the hectic day?
With the watchful eyes on my bosses, i opened the school web and checked.

Oh great, i'm excited, not to see how well i fly, but rather, how deep my results could ever sink.

Am 'smiling' to find two new Donkeys in my backyard, a new Cock in the farm and a Bee with the tattoo + on its butt flying around the computer screen. Well, it's distinction for psychology though.

Good lord am back for good. At least that would mean that there's gonna be a rise in GDP n GPA (Guy's Power Approximation) in the coming year 3. I hope so. WINK.

And bless me god for the upcoming challenges. May i collect more Ants than Donkeys in the future. Size doesnt mean everything. Remember the brawl between ants n elephone? lol.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

4:56 PM

Great pictures by chestre. Thanks bro! looking forward to more of them. Cheers.

Dodo: Architecture sucks !

Friends: With us around, it aint tat bad wat?

Dodo: Yeah, absolutely!

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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Friday, March 02, 2007

5:53 PM

DEAR beloved friends who have sweated it out during the A.

It's time for the reward. Congrats to those who did well n achieved what they desire.

For some whose results arent favourable, dont despair!

Would like to highlight a few names.

The pretty girl Janice, you rock with 3As and B3 in GP

For the gay bandit Dharwin in SA, rocking the world with 3 str8 As and a B. with a fail in.... wakakkaa... You are great dude!keep it up.

And for my room mate of 5-6yrs (Vincent). no one will doubt that you could do just that well. 4As and a B. Superb! Keep it up of course, and am sure you will.

May all the upcoming endeavours be successful and fruitful.

Cheers from your beloved friend-dodo

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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12:57 PM

Thanks Dhy for the inspiration to do a small free publicity for book that we're reading.

I proudly introduce to you ,' Augusten Burroughs' , the no1 best selling author of running with scissors.

POSSIBLE SIDE EFFECTS

hilarious . stomach-tickling. cute.

This book is approved for consumption by those seeking pleasure, escape, amusement, enlightenment, or general distraction. This book is not approved to treat disorders such as eBay addiction or incessant blind dating. In studies, some people reported inappropriate, convulsive laughter, a tingling sensation in the limbs, and sudden gasping. Fewer than 1 percent reported narcolepsy.Doll collectors may experience special sensitivity, as may discourteous drivers, candy-company brand managers, and nicotine-gum users. This book has been shown to be especially helpful to those with parents, grandparents, life partners, and incontinent dogs. People with dry, cracked skin have responded well to this book, as have people with certain heart conditions.Do not operate heavy machinery while reading this book, until you know what effects it may have on you. This text is contraindicated in those suffering from certain psychiatric disorders, including---but not limited to---readers afflicted with anhedonia, which is the inability to experience pleasure.Ask your doctor about Possible Side Effects.

try it and we shall share the world of lame jokes. :)

cheerios

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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12:04 PM

Many would say that studying is the BEST PART OF YOUR LIFE.
It did not dawn on me until i began working these days. Well, it isnt a real job though, but it's meant to be one. ;)

Having to clock in at 9am each morning, i made a reluctant switch to my snoring hour. Earlier sleep of course. More often than not, am bombarded with messages from fella frens n fans (to be precise), which left me with no option but to work on those finger muscles once again.
That's how my phone bill skyrocketed to the highest sky you could ever reach! ;P
As such, i usually sleep at 1am and above.

My alarm woke me up at 720am, just the right time to kickstart the day and arrive at work punctually. My subconscious mind told me to sleep a 'little' longer. :) What a perfect day. Till the minute point made another round, and there i found myself panicked to face my room ceiling at 8.30am. That didnt alarm me much though. I took the normal pace to bathe and get dressed instead of hurriedly zipping my pants.

I reach the train station half an hour later. 9am. Guess what time i start work? it's 9am. lol. I did a quick march once i reached tanjong pagar and began my 'are-my-bosses-there' kind of speculation till i stormed in the office. To my realisation, only one/two colleagues have turned up. phew.. and my bosses? Oh yeah, forgot to inform that they always clock in 2hours later.
Well, you should not blame me too much for i've actually learnt my lessons of coming to office early. I came in at 9am and guess what, no one's around. I've to wait for another 20minutes before someone opened the door.

At work

Work is fun. or perhaps i've been pshychoing my little mind to make the 9-1830 work 'FUN'. Shits did happen. When it occurred, i just have to solve those s***. Anyway, i'm blessed with great people here, incld the bosses. no complaints! Nice food at the nearby hawker too. Tantalising porridge which activated my sweat glands to its very max. Each time i cameback to office, my clothes drenched, forehead wetted, mouth stinked for i've been savouring the mixed pork porridge. :)

My salary? $440/mth. Too little to survive. But what's there to complain anyway?

Life at work is a matter of priority. You sit down and do your stuff, when it's time to knock off, you fly! but you cant fly too high for there's work the next day. weekends? time to rest. sigh.
Pathetic cycle. Despite, it turns me on! just like the viagra. laugh out loud.

Cheers to all working dudes n ladies.

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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11:55 AM

2nd March

End of 3rd week

6 more weeks to redemption .hee

another 6 weeks of coming in to office late

wakkaka

so far so fine

am broke

help moi

arrrggghhhhh

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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