Fernando Zhang

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

12:50 AM

If you are asking how long have i left this blog unattended? well the answer may just come out right now. .
what i wanna say is I AM BUSY. no excuse. esp in Singapore. :)

well, it';s true. too true to be true. Life has been hectic. Well let's not call it life, for life is full of happiness . hmmm... devilife, how does that sound? hee. I've felt much anxieties at times sorrows these days. I've brighter days .. sometimes... but not always. still looking for that equilibrium each one of us longs to have . . a balance where mind is at peace and heart goes complementing.
sigh.. i could only sigh....

Hving complained... it gives me strength in times of downfall.. perhaps tat's me. someone who cant be pushed off the cliff. i declare myself not wanting to be defeated... which makes me stronger .. fly higher than i could possibly imagine. . . i thanks those around me. i thank the mind. i thank the attitude. i thank the love.. from people whom i know and whom have loved me and bcome part of my life.

I;ve heart lightening sharing session with the lectures. hearing things i wouldnt imagine them saying. It's so encouraging, esp in times when u seek to fall deeper and not wanting to help heave yourself to a safer place.

I brought myself to face hard cold facts these days. not wanting to deal with the unnecessary troubles i could only cause to myself, which leads me to nowhere but a place of darkness and huge uncertainty. i've experienced that! and never want to go back there anymore... not in this life. .

i have come up with something that goes, " face it. Swallow it. There's no way you should be running away."

I received grades for presentation. 3As, 1 B. encouraging enough to move on better. this one proves something. thanks to all!
been busy with the club matters. interpoly gathering, international nite, events after events, hanging out, visiting dad, archi final project, in house activities, gym, not to mention the yogas which i;ve left behind for a month. :(

Am i expecting too much out of myself?
sometimes i think it as a yes.. well, guess need to give myself some good decent snores... have a good night everyone.

next blog publish date? unsure. . till then

For an end simply means Fernando. -rhapsodyfcuk-
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